Motivation

I find it difficult to stay intensely focused/passionate about one thing.  If there's one thing I envy in other people, it's definitely single-mindedness.

Part of it is that I'm fascinated by a lot of things and generally tend to consider everything I want to learn of equal value or importance.  Not by value or principle, but intrinsically in the time I allow whatever happens to pique my interest.

Also I spend a lot of time pondering the universe, the bigger picture, the relativity and meaning of everything.  I usually end up coming to the same terms with the writer of Ecclesiastes "everything is utterly meaningless in life".  Finally vexed enough with my paralysis to do anything productive with this outlook, I consulted what the author had to say about the meaning of life.  Generally- he said everything is meaningless- so just enjoy it for what it is, while it is.

But more importantly "Whatever your hand finds to do- do it with all your might, for in the grace, where you are going, there is neither working, nor planning, nor knowledge, nor wisdom."

That's enough validation for me right now.