So amidst suffering the shame/embarrassment of a past fling
with self-indulgent ranting and picture posting on **xanga, and upon reading
blogs and judging their narcissism and ignorant twittering, I’ve resolved to:
1) Attempt to be less judgy
2) Appreciate the possibilities.
Reasons why I don’t blog:
1) Vanity of vanities.
2) Computers are soul-suckers. Someone write a scifi orginal movie now.3) Like I need my ignorant A broadcasting on the web.
4) Privacy issues. As a paranoid child I believed in
men-in-vents. Imagine the implications on my adult life.
5) Copycats. Cause I’m like sooo original. Though, truly they’re a major annoyance
of mine. Youngest children, you
probably get me.
6) Writing in a real journal cooler than typing on a .com
7) Internet peeps are losers
8) More important things to do (like finish Felicity on netflix...)9) Stalkers (real xanga stalker in high school. And you know I'm toootally stockable)
10) I don’t like people assuming things about me or presuming to know me because of something I write. Misinterpret this! (see Forgot About Dre lyrics)
11) Often I tackily say whatever I want in the moment. Maybe
more easily forgettable/forgivable in real life, but in the interweb once it’s
out there, it’s out there sucka!
12) In my entrepreneurial spirit- what do I have to gain?
13) The feeling that I’m contributing to a culture that
lives, loves, breathes internet.
And feeding pervasive loneliness and human isolation.
Reasons why I should:
1) Yes it’s totally vain. But maybe my other reasons make it less vain.
2) It is what it is.
I don’t live in the 90s anymore and this is how things happen now. :(
3) I’m not going to allow it to overpower my
lifestyle (real life living will always>the matrix).
4) Sorry Thoreau, but you didn’t change history by merely
traipsing around in the woods. You published. In other words, information should be shared, not guarded.
5) I started reading blogs. I find cool stuff, cool ideas, etc and maybe I can give
someone else cool ideas or at least contribute to some sort of cerebral
stimulation.
6) It’s all been done.
Even if I finally achieve a truly original thought and someone is phony
enough to copy me, whatever.
Besides, I kinda already gave up on nonconformity ideals when I was 15
and realized punks all dress the same, listen to the same
music, etc…***
7) Need to destroy my collegy attitude of ownership of
things I love. Such as: “I totally
heard of that first.” “I showed
you that!” etc… I’m happy to make
someone else excited about things, but the moment they spread the word
and don’t give me credit, I get totally pissed. I need to get over this.
8) I enjoy writing.
I would like to get better at it.
Practice practice practice! Right?....
9) I enjoy art.
Right now I have no one encouraging me to do it (accountability)
10) Kinda-form of external processing. I’ll take more of that wherever I can
get it
11) Possible desire for validation. Geeze I hope not…
12) Opportunity to exercise self control. Also, now I can finally b#### about
everyone.
13) In my entrepreneurial spirit- professional development!
networking! Ads=Income$! Check out my etsy! (jk)
14) I am never in control of people’s perception of me and
anyway who cares?
15) Keep up with friends! Ha okay, not really.
16) Chance to explore and understand the human condition,
the pervasiveness of loneliness, and anything else interesting. Also, wax-poetic and wax-philosophic to
impress people.
*Nothing against middle-agers. Love `em.
Screw our youth-centric culture.
Seriously.
**Has since been deleted- thank God and ummm thanks
for the warning, xanga- now I can never reminisce...
***that being said- plagiarism is lame/disgusting and
people that copy are lazy/boring.
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